This is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I don't know where to start. Let's start with in the last 1½ years I have lost a Brother and now my Dad to satan. My older Brother Rick committed suicide in April 2006 right around Passover. He was an engineer on the Railroad and he walked in front of a speeding train to end his life. If you have read my Beloved wife Elisabeth's Testimony you know that this is exactly the same way satan tried to get Elisabeth to commit suicide years ago through a doctor. Satan is ruthless and mocked what the doctor told my beloved to do when she was younger. Satan couldn't get Elisabeth to kill herself this way but he got my Brother to do it instead.

Rick was in a car accident years ago and he messed up his back and was in a lot of pain so he used alcohol to numb the pain. Rick liked to drink before the car accident as most of my family did but the accident really took a toll on Rick. He couldn't work too much after the accident and he had a love/hate relationship with the Railroad. He loved being an engineer but he hated the way the Railroad operated and the politics involved. After years of drinking Rick got involved with gambling and got himself in some trouble with gambling debt. I don't know exactly what happened; I can only go on what my Dad told me in.

Rick got divorced years ago but never really got over the marriage. He kept so much of his pain and anger inside and would drink to numb this emotional pain too. He would battle depression too and ended up in treatment centers and on medications more than once for these problems.

Rick was a fun guy and most everyone liked him. He and I use to party together once in awhile back in the old days. Rick had a great sense of humor and loved sports. He and I were huge Green Bay Packers fans and we would get together to watch Packer football games and do sport trivia questions. He always would beat me on the sports trivia. Rick was a great guy sober but the alcohol really turned a fun, intelligent guy into a lonely, isolated, depressed and angry man.

I too struggled in my younger years with alcohol and I got into a lot of trouble because of alcohol. But YAHUVEH used this problem I had with alcohol to reach me. When I finally had enough of the pain and troubles in my life from alcohol I started my search for the truth. It was a long journey but well worth it. I now know the truth and nobody will ever take that away from me. I look back at my life and Rick's life because we both had a lot of the same problems but here I am with YAHUVEH, YAHUSHUA and MOMMA RUACH HA KODESH and my Brother is in hell. This is really hard when you know your loved ones are not in heaven and they chose this.

Rick and I would talk about God [I say God here because I didn't know YAH's Name at the time] years earlier but I didn't have a relationship with Rick since I came to this Ministry. I remember Rick asking me why my life didn't always go so smooth with God in my life. He thought that with God in my life I never was to have anymore problems in my life. Boy, I wish that was the case but as we all know it is not. I never had an opportunity to really minister to Rick since I joined this ministry but my entire family knows of this ministry and what we preach and teach and I know they have been to the Ministry sites.

Rick always blamed my Dad for his problems. He really had something against my Dad and was very angry with him. My Dad wrote me after Rick's funeral and told me that my Mom and Dad went to Minnesota where Rick lived from Colorado shortly before Rick's suicide and tried to get Rick into treatment for his problems but Rick wanted nothing to do with them or treatment.

Here is part of an email my Dad sent me when they went to Minnesota to help Rick. He was explaining to me what they did to try and get Rick into treatment and get some professional help and this is the last words my parents had with Rick. They went to Ricks townhouse one last time to try to reach him.

So we tried one last time to see him about 9:00 am Wednesday. Pounding on the door produced no one, until we started to leave when he opened the upstairs window, refused to come down and talked for only a few minutes. I asked him why he refused to see us. He said he was pissed at us. Why I asked. Because you brought them two guys over from the mental health clinic. Do you know why I did I asked? No, he said. Well the reason I did was because when we met you indicated that you thought you were mentally ill, hearing voices and have crazy thoughts, thats why we had them come over, so they could help you. He said "OH" and that was it. Unfortunately these efforts also failed.

My Dad felt a lot of guilt that he could not help Rick, but it was not my Dad's fault. My parents did everything they could to help Rick, he didn't want the help.

This is the note Rick left in his car before his suicide. "This is the end of chronic pain, because I was run over by a train, and without a dollar to my name."

Good-Bye Dear Brother, I Love You and Miss You even though we were not to close the last few years, I grieve for the decision you made before you came to this earth.

My Dad died on September 17, 2007 from pancreatic cancer. I really, really struggle with my Dad's death. Back in the mid 1980's when I started in my spiritual journey searching for the truth I checked out a lot of different churches and beliefs. I went to the Science of Mind church in Denver, Colorado for a couple months and I invited my Dad there and he fell in love with the place. I was still in my spiritual journey you might say, but I knew in my Spirit there was something wrong with this church even though I didn't study their beliefs too much and I quit going but my Dad joined this church and was a member for about 20 years. This grieves me to this day.

This church teaches that you can heal yourself if you think the correct way. They believe diseases and cancer and illness is caused by your thinking. Well if that is the truth why is my Dad dead and his soul burning in hell now. Why didn't he think the right way and heal himself. Stupidity, Stupidity, Stupidity. I am so angry as I write this. He was not a stupid man, he was very intelligent but he sure was stupid with his eternal soul. If we can heal ourselves with our thinking why does anyone die? Why is he dead? Why didn't my Dad heal himself?

The founder of this church is Earnest Holmes and it is called Science of Mind. It is metaphysical science junk. This church is a lie and is leading people straight to hell. They believe they are gods and have the power to heal and change the world by their thinking. They believe YAHUSHUA [Jesus] was a good man with great teachings but not the Son of YAHUVEH. They teach man is perfect and there is no sin, we just make mistakes but these are not sins. I can't believe my Dad believed this junk, but he did. They believe in a Universal Mind that they choose to call god but it is satan. Satan is their god and satan laughs at every one of these people as they don't heal themselves and they die and go straight to hell. Please help us expose this so-called church for what it is, LIES, LIES, LIES.

In 2002 my Dad was diagnosed with prostrate cancer and was going in to have surgery. Elisabeth and I talked to him on the phone before the surgery and he talked about how he believes that if he can envision and believe in his own healing then he will be healed. We told him that YAHUSHUA is the only way to get true healing. He would not listen to us. So shortly after this phone conversation we received a word of warning for my Dad. This warning was Spoken through Elisabeth.

Warning from YAHUSHUA to my Dad.

Charles must be warned before his surgery. The ground that he has sowed seed in was cursed by ME. He must REPENT, he must burn all books and materials for they hold curses within them placed there by satan. When something is full of lying deceiving devil doctrine, how could it be a blessing in his home? The place he sowed the seed must be redeemed. Ask him to ask ME and I will tell him what to do. [My Dad bought all of Earnest Holmes Books, materials and junk]

Nikomia you must pray, for Charles does not know how to break the curses on these books and all the materials he has gathered and brought into his home. Your mother has done the same but she will not listen to you. So Charles must only be concerned with what he has to do for both of them are very much divided in their beliefs in ME and right now I am setting your Dad Charles free. Follow up with another phone call when you hear MY voice.

Niko, I know that you are concerned about your dad, but you must give ME control, you must realise nothing can happen that I don't allow and just like Elisabeth there is a purpose in everything I do and this is the way it is for Charles too. No one shall touch him in the hospital stay unless I have personally sent them his way. My hand shall guide the surgeon's hands so be not concerned. You will know when to call him, you will know when to encourage, you will know what to say.

He is given a choice whether to burn the books, he is given a choice whether to bless the cursed ground where he sowed seed where the devil's doctrine did abound. He needs to hear the new Prophecy 'NOW IS THE TIME' for it isn't just obeying when you feel like it, it is not just obeying when you can understand, obedience is 24 hours.

I won't let your dad go [die] but I must teach him to obey. You will know how much he obeys; you will know how much he will bring upon himself if he does not obey. These books must be destroyed and all materials. He must REPENT to ME for sowing seed in the devil's garden, for he has brought these curses upon himself, but I am using him as an example of MY Saving Grace if he will but turn to ME. I will take away his pain and he must trust ME and believe MY reports and not the doctor's reports.

He must believe that I am a GOD that heals, I am a GOD that delivers, I am a GOD that saves, but he must acknowledge that there is an enemy and his name is satan and that is why he needs his soul saved. Get him to renew the vows again that he said he said to ME before his surgery. Tell him to surrender his life, mind, body, spirit and soul. Tell him to ask ME into his heart.

Don't let him say a new age prayer and think that it is finished there. Don't forget MY Niko who gave you the love for your Dad, the same one who gave you the love for your Brothers and your Mother and for all those I put MY love in you. How much do you trust ME Niko, then give Charles to ME, take your hand off of him. Let ME discipline where it is necessary, let ME love and let ME cuddle MY son in MY arms for I only know how to keep him from harm.

I know you and Elisabeth would prefer to be there but for now the love on the telephone is where you will both share.

END OF WARNING

I called my Dad and gave him this warning before his surgery. Needless to say he was shocked but thanked me for the word and then he asked me, “What are you saying, that I could die if I don't do this?” and I said, “Not this time Dad but maybe next time.”

He had surgery after this and everything appeared to go well and he thought that he was healed of all cancer. We talked again on the phone after his surgery but never once did he give YAHUSHUA the credit for his so-called healing. He still believed he had the power to heal himself through positive thoughts and visions. In reality he believed he was a God and had the power to heal himself.

Well he didn't heal himself, he only fooled himself because in June of 2006, 3 months after my Brother Rick's suicide we got an email from my Dad and he said he was flying to the Mayo Clinic in Rochester Minnesota for tests because they suspected pancreatic cancer but wanted to do some more tests. I knew right then my Dad was in trouble.

I need to back up a little bit here. We did not go to my brother Ricks funeral in April because we were in Alaska and the weather was bad and we were in the process of packing up to move to Switzerland. We were not supposed to go the funeral. Honestly I am sad but I am glad we could not make it to his funeral because I would have told everyone the truth where my Brother Rick's soul is right now and that is hell. Everyone wants to believe that Rick is in a better place now, that he is no longer suffering and he is at peace. HOGWASH, Rick is in hell right now and has not a moment of peace and will be tormented for eternity and that is what I would have told them and I am sure it would have brought much division and anger to an already stressful situation. So I am grateful we couldn't make it.

Anyway what I am saying is, I never said anything to my family about where Rick really is. And shortly after Rick's funeral I awoke one morning and I kept hearing from YAHUSHUA to start praying for my Dad because satan is going after him next. I told my beloved wife Elisabeth what I was hearing and we immediately started praying for my Dad. It is after this I get the email from my Dad saying he has pancreatic cancer. Well, I knew what was going on and I couldn't hold back any longer so I emailed my Dad again and told him what was really happening.

I told him Rick was in hell and that satan is going after him next. I told him Rick was indeed hearing voices and it was demons that were talking to him and they told him to kill himself. I told him YAHUSHUA is the only way to get truly healed and the only way to heaven and if he did not accept YAHUSHUA and HIS Saving Blood that he will be in the same place Rick was at. I also warned him about a dream I had a couple weeks earlier about my 2 other Brothers Chris and Mike. They were flying together in a small plane and the plane took a nose dive and crashed straight into the ground. I then drove a snowmobile to the crash site looking for their body parts but I couldn't find a thing. I also warned him of a vision Elisabeth had after my Brother Rick's funeral, she saw a house of cards and she saw the house of cards fall and she heard that the house of cards is my family and Rick is just the beginning. I warned him, I warned him and I warned him.

He never responded to my email but I know he received it because YAHUSHUA told me he read it. On my Dad's birthday March 11, 2007 Elisabeth and I called him to wish him a Happy Birthday. I was shocked how weak he sounded on the phone, I barely recognised his voice. He couldn't talk too long because he got very tired but he did tell me one thing, he said, “He didn't understand what I was doing with my life in this Ministry but nonetheless he supported me.” He still didn't get it. He still thought he could heal himself, THEN WHY ARE YOU DEAD DAD? Why am I never going to see you again? Why are we never going to hunt or fish or hike or talk with each other again? I have tears running down my face as I write this but this is how I feel. I am very angry at my Dad right now. Why wouldn't he listen? I loved my Dad so much, he was a really great guy. I am going to miss him so much, I already do. I know his eternal destination was already determined before the foundation of this world [Prophecy 71] but it still hurts and is painful. I know there is nothing more I could have done but it still hurts.

If I knew he was in heaven I would be rejoicing right now because I know I would see him again, but he is not in heaven, he is in hell. I think of him everyday and what he is going through right now. I pray that YAHUVEH has mercy on him in hell if there is such a thing. My Dad was not an evil guy, he was kind, compassionate, understanding, loving, and helpful and so much more but this could not save his soul. He was truly a nice guy but this could not save his soul. I think this hurts so much because I had alot of hope for my Dad. Everytime my Dad and I got together we would talk about the bible and YAHUSHUA [Jesus]. He would ask me questions and I would answer him and I truly believed he was eventually going to accept YAHUSHUA.

The last time I saw my Dad was in October 2001 on a Elk hunting trip in the Colorado mountains. I remember him and I sitting on the edge of a mountain cliff overlooking a beaver pond. It was absolutely beautiful, we were suppose to be hunting but we were sitting there talking about our beliefs. I would share about YAHUSHUA and the bible and he would share his beliefs with me and I would explain to him that his beliefs were not biblical and tell him what the bible said. He always seemed very receptive of what I said, but apparently he just couldn't believe it. Now he is paying the price.

I made one last effort to reach my Dad in July of 2007 in an email. In July we were given a word through my beloved wife Elisabeth that my Dad's time on this earth was short. This word came as we were talking on the phone to a faithful partner in this Ministry named Charles. Charles is my biological Dad's name also. While we were praying with Charles, Elisabeth went under the anointing and the word was given that my Dad's time was short but that YAHUVEH brought another man into my life that even had the same name and close to the same age as my Dad and this man would be my Spiritual Father from now on. Thank You YAHUVEH. Charles has been a True Blessing to both Elisabeth and I.

Anyway we did not know what was going on with my Dad because we had not talked to anyone for a while regarding my Dad's health. So I emailed him this email. The title to the email was

HOW ARE YOU DAD? I LOVE YOU.

Hi Dad, I hope all went well with the family reunion. We are sorry we could not make it. How are you feeling Dad? I have emailed you a couple times and have not heard back from you yet.

Dad, I know you know what I believe in and what this ministry teaches and I need to invite you one last time to PLEASE ACCEPT YAHUSHUA (JESUS) INTO YOUR HEART AND REPENT OF ANY SINS YOU HAVE. YAHUSHUA is the ONLY WAY TO HEAVEN DAD and I WANT TO SPEND ETERNITY WITH YOU THERE.

I know you have searched for the truth and you don't believe everything in the bible. I know it is easier to believe in an all loving God and that everyone will go somewhere when they leave this earth. But the eternal question is where. Where do we go from here? You know what the Bible says and I know you don't believe it about Hell or you would accept YAHUSHUA. Let me ask you this Dad, "What IF you are right and we all go to a nice place after we leave this earth. It would not matter then if I was wrong, would it, because even though I missed it about YAHUSHUA and Heaven and Hell. I would still be going to a nice place when I leave this earth, right? (I say nice place due to not knowing how to put it any other way.

I believe there are going to be millions maybe billions of genuinely nice, good intentioned people in Hell because this has nothing to do with being nice and good. According to the Bible we ALL SIN on this earth and the only way back into Heaven is through YAHUSHUA who washes our sins away with HIS Shed Blood. Once we accept YAHUSHUA's sacrifice for us repent of our sins and obey HIM then we will make it to Heaven. This is all about YAHUSHUA and what HE did for us not about what we do. I pray you understand what I am trying to say Dad.

But what if I am right and there is only 1 way into Heaven through YAHUSHUA and there really is a Hell for all who do not accept YAHUSHUA and obey HIM. The stakes are great Dad for those who miss it. If I am right Dad look at the consequences, HELL. If you are right Dad look at the consequences, A NICE PLACE no matter what anyone believes. I have nothing to lose believing the way I do because I am going to Heaven if I am right and I am going to a NICE PLACE if you are right. But if I am right you have everything to lose Dad and your soul will spend eternity in Hell if you do not accept YAHUSHUA.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DAD, I do not want to see you go to Hell. Please think of this. What do you have to lose accepting YAHUSHUA into your heart and obeying HIM. NOTHING. You are a good man Dad and have a sincere and loving heart, please give it to YAHUSHUA. You are probably following most of the 10 Commandments now anyway. The only Commandments I know you break are the 1st and the 4th. This is sinning Dad, when we disobey the Commandments. This is why we need to be forgiven through YAHUSHUA'S Shed Blood.

Dad, I LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO WARN YOU, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE LISTEN. I LOVE YOU SO, SO MUCH. I know you don't understand why I am doing what I do, but I promise you Dad, you will understand soon.

I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH

Nikomia

I wrote that on July 20, 2007 and I never got a response from my Dad. I did get an email from my Mom on August 10 and this is what my Mom said.

Charlie is doing well and just had a cat scan Jan 24th. Dr. said everything looks good and chemo will continue twice a month. We are grateful for all the prayers and love from family and friends and Charlie is very courageous in dealing with this illness. End of email.

After I received this email both Elisabeth and I were a little confused because YAHUVEH told us less then a month earlier that my Dad's time on this earth was short, but I was grateful he was doing well. So then I got an email from my brother Chris on September 8, 2007 and he said Dad was not well now and things didn't look good.

On September 20, we moved to another home in the country we are in and it took a few days to get ready for this move and I was extremely busy with the move and trying to keep up with the ministry site that I did not get to my emails for several days. We moved into our new home on the 20th of September and immediately after moving in we were in prayer Thanking YAHUVEH, YAHUSHUA and MOMMA RUACH HA KODESH for our beautiful new home. As we were praying Elisabeth went under the anointing and MOMMA RUACH HA KODESH started to speak through her and towards the end of the anointing MOMMA singled me out and was comforting me and was covering me in kisses in the Spirit. I didn't understand exactly why I was being singled out but I found out the next day when we got the internet running and I went to my email. This is the word given through Elisabeth the night before I found out my Dad had died.

My beloved son Niko, there’s coming a time very quickly now, where I’m going to rock you in MY arms. I’m going to kiss your brow. And I’m going to use Elisabeth’s arms to do it and all those around. Do not push them away. MY love shall be in that embrace MY son. You don’t understand what I’m saying now. Just know this, I am your Heavenly MOTHER and when Elisabeth rocks you in her arms and kisses your brow, you are going to feel MY anointing in a way you’ve never known before. Receive it. Believe it. Do not be as a turtle crawling into a shell. You see, all of you in this room have made your choices and they have been good. All of you had a choice. Each and every day. For I never promised you it’d be easy. This is a price to pay to be called the Bride of YAHUSHUA.

Tell Niko I’m covering his face right now with kisses. Tell Niko that I have the love of a mother that he has never known before. Allow ME to love you through Elisabeth. Allow ME to love you through the others. Never push ME away. I am here for you MY son. That’s all you have ever wanted. Even as a small little child. Amidst all your brothers, you just wanted to feel special. You just needed that undivided attention and there were so many brothers. But Niko, I was there. See Elisabeth speaks of a void in her for a mother. But your biological mother was so busy. She had more than she could handle. Her heart grew colder with each wound. And so many times you felt shut out. But I am there MY beloved. And this night, I single you out for this reason, to tell you this. At times Elisabeth looks at you with such love you don’t know how to handle it. But that’s not just her love, that’s MY love coming through those eyes. At times Elisabeth, Niko looks at you with such love you don’t know how to handle it. But that’s not just the ABBA’S love, or YAHUSHUA’S love, that’s MY love.

I received an email from my brother Tom that our Dad passed away on September 17th at 7:40 a.m. MOMMA knew my Dad had died and was comforting me before I even knew he was gone. Thank You MOMMA, I LOVE YOU! The email my Brother Tom sent me was from my Dad's email account and the title to the email Tom sent me was "HOW ARE YOU DAD? I LOVE YOU. This was the email title I sent my Dad on July 20 so I know my Dad got the email and now I know my brother read it too. I hope my whole family read it because it applies to everyone of them.

My Dad's memorial was the day I got the email of his death and I was devastated but I still had hope my dad read my email from July 20, and he accepted YAHUSHUA. I called my mom and there was no answer so I emailed her and she sent me the following email.

Thought you might like a copy of Charlie's obituary. His memorial service was a beautiful celebration at his favorite church.  I'll write later. 

This was not what I wanted or needed to hear. I knew his favorite church was the wrong church; it was the church that led him straight to the pit of hell. How could the memorial service be a beautiful celebration if my family really knew the truth? It couldn't be, they all would have been grieving like I am now and not celebrating his earthly life but grieving his spiritual life and where his soul will be for all eternity.

GOOD-BYE DAD. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I am so sad I will never see you again. I am so sad you have to spend eternity in hell and the Lake of Fire. I think of you everyday and am so sad of what you are going through. Why didn't you listen, why didn't you believe. I know you believe in YAHUSHUA now, but now is too late. Why did you throw the Shed Blood of YAHUSHUA back in HIS face. Why did you make this decision even before you came to earth. How could you make this decision. How could you feel the Love of Abba YAHUVEH, YAHUSHUA and MOMMA RUACH HA KODESH at one time in heaven and then choose to follow Lucifer into hell. I don't think I will ever understand. I want to say, it didn't have to be this way, but it did have to be this way because your name Dad was not in the Lamb's Book Of Life. You made this choice a long time ago but I always hung on to hope.


Please email me at amightywind2k@yahoo.com if this Memorial has made a difference for you or someone you know and then I can start to heal, at least knowing this has changed someone else's life and they will choose YAHUSHUA and HIS Saving Blood and heaven instead of my Dad's choice. I need to know my Dad's life and death have not been in vain. YAHUVEH told me HE was going to use this to reach souls so please let us know if it is you.

I want to sincerely apologize to my Beloved Wife Elisabeth because I have not been the same since my Dad's death and have had some misdirected anger and unfortunately most of the time it was directed at the one I love most on this earth. I DO LOVE YOU HONEY. Please forgive me. This has been healing for me and now it is time to fight the enemy like never before.

Niko
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